You don't know what you want because you have it

"I don't know what I want. When you don't know what you want, you've reached the state of desirelessness. When you really don't know.

Why don't you really know what you want? Two reasons that you don't really know what you want: number one: you have it. Number two: you don't know yourself, because you never can. The Godhead is never an object of its own knowledge. It's always an endless mystery to itself. I don't know! And this I don't know is the same thing as I love, I let go, I don't try to force or control, it's the same thing as humility.

'He by whom Brahman is not known, knows It; he by whom It is known, knows It not. It is not known by those who know It; It is known by those who do not know It.' (Kena Upanishad 2.3)

The meaning of the fact that everything is dissolving constantly, that we're all falling apart, we're all in a process of constant death... all falling apart, everything is. That's the great assistance to you. That fact, that everything is in decay, is your harbor. That is allowing you, that you don't have to let go, because there's nothing to hold on to.

It's achieved for you, in other words, by the process of nature. So once you see that you just don't have a prayer, that it's all washed up, and that you will vanish and "leave not a rack behind", and you really get with that... suddenly, you find you have the power. This enormous access of energy. But it's not power that came to you because you grabbed it, it came in entirely the opposite way. And power that comes to you in that opposite way, is power with which you can be trusted."

-Alan Watts

Protectionspell

"I remember the day I walked out of my Lion's mother's cave, the snakes had being awaiting me outside, and I started to play and dance with some fine confidence, full of plain white innocence. and when I learned to fly, I learned a lot about what lifts you up can throw you down and found out that also works the other way around

Thank you for your trust, because that is what makes me believe that we can heal each other cause everything is everything and I know sometimes you’re worried about the future and again and again I said to myself, don't you worry cause everything is everything, everything is everything.

Walking through the same dreams, indescribable and out of control as it seems, dream within a dream

and I try to remember that I don't depend on anything, only in a way that like loving or laughing, sleeping or crying

Creation is the opposite of dying, this is what keeps me sane, when someone interrupted the circle with consciousness, pretending to myself it could last had being the greatest part of it. It is the earth of lying

and its never been healthy to depend on someone's love, rather than the freedom it may give you to enjoy our wonder

I feel all this is a mirror that expands and everyone is free to mirror a part of himself. You can see your self in the way you want to see something

I hope you remember, that everything is everything, everything is everything, is everything, is everything, is everything....." 

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